Ouch

[calculus_of_destructions]

[Darlin', you might not want to read this...]

So what was to be a pleasant night out with one of K's coworkers turned into a "justify your existence" inquisition based on second wave transmisogynist bullshit. It was nice to find out that my existence was somewhat inherently offensive, for having experienced male privilege at some point but "choosing" to be female*, and that I have value only because K likes me. See, I thought I had no fucking value, so it was good to know that the affection of a cis woman still gives me the right to live.

So, yeah, all I have to show for last night are a bunch of nightmares and some new gouges on my arms. But, hey, I suppose there is a silver lining here. I may have been crushing a bit on this coworker of hers - like I do with probably half the queer girls I meet because I'm fucking absurd - and was experiencing my usual crushy awkwardness, but that has been totally fixed now! Yay! Or something. Fuck. It was just a night full of ouch and fail.

*Didn't I just fucking write about that shit?

Comments

[calculus_of_destructions]

Also, when someone is starting to dig their fingernails into their forearm out of discomfort...would you really consider it a good idea to laugh and say "we need to get you a razor blade"?

[kiena]

Really? Really? Wow, what a complete asshole. I'm sorry they were such an insensitive clod and a waste of air. *hug*

[calculus_of_destructions]

Hah, what's funny is that I still want to defend her from these remarks because that's how I roll. I don't like to call anyone an asshole...I'm not even angry about what happened. Just sad. I don't get it.

Well, I guess one thing that I can legitimately say in her defense is that after she said that particular remark she realized that she fucked up bad and pretty much said that she'd understand if I never wanted to see her again.

[kiena]

I have, uh, ~issues~, with people who make light of self-injury. (Not counting if someone makes light of their own issues, I'm talking about people making fun of others, even if it's a general 'other' and not a specific person).

It's one of my serious sore spots, right up there with making fun of rape and sexual assault or suicide. It's one of the few things that'll make me actually angry - not annoyed or irritated, but angry.

So I'm sorry if it was too harsh of language while in your space. :) I didn't intend to bring so much baggage with me, haha.

[tim]

?!?!!! I didn't know it was possible for someone to be way more offensive than Rafael.

[laceblade]

What the fuck is the matter with people?!