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Dealing with the world is a scary thing most days. I'm scared of people staring at me, scared of being confronted in the bathroom, scared of people misgendering me.
I've been scared long enough of these things that it's starting to turn into anger and impatience. I've started wanting to be confrontational when people give me dirty looks. I want to spit in their faces and yell at them.
I sit with that anger, though, and it eventually melts back into the fear and I start crying. I hope I'll be done with all this at some point. I can handle it, I will handle it, but it's draining.
I've been scared long enough of these things that it's starting to turn into anger and impatience. I've started wanting to be confrontational when people give me dirty looks. I want to spit in their faces and yell at them.
I sit with that anger, though, and it eventually melts back into the fear and I start crying. I hope I'll be done with all this at some point. I can handle it, I will handle it, but it's draining.