What do I do?

[calculus_of_destructions]

I feel like I can't protect anyone I care about, and because I can't protect them I'm going to lose everyone. I'm going to lose them and all the little moments of stability I've made for myself, carved out of the rock with my fingernails. I wish I could just start my life all over again.

Comments

[tim]

But how do you know your life would be any different if you started it over again? Maybe it would be worse. ;-P

[calculus_of_destructions]

Heh, maybe that's not the best message for someone who's been a flick-of-the-wrist away from killing themselves three times in a week. :-P

[tim]

Isn't it a good enough reason to stay alive, knowing that the next time around might be worse? :P Seriously, though, don't kill yourself.